A Burning Desire
My life before salvation was full of
deception. Pride was at the center of my existence,
and everything I did was for personal gain.
Most of my motives were selfish. And when I came across as helpful the real truth was I wanted something in return for my time and efforts. I
have been a self-seeker always looking to obtain something from you. Rarely was I
genuine.
Fear consumed me and anger engulfed my
heart. I was in constant conflict with anyone that entered into my personal
space. Resentments filled my spirit and
were kept active by replaying the injurious incidents (fancied or real) over
and again in my mind. The revenge
syndrome fueled my rage.
I couldn’t live in my skin because there was
something missing.
The way I use to deal with all those woes was
through alcohol. I became a drunkard because my ears and eyes were deaf and
blinded to God’s calling.
The more I abused alcohol to ease the pains
of life the deeper I fell into the bottomless pit of despair.
And
the way He intervened was allowing me to feel the pains of hopelessness.
I had to reach that point where alcohol had its way with me before He would reach out and take my hand. My powerlessness
over its paralyzing grip was devastating. Everything I tried to stop drinking
failed and it only got worse.
I had to reach that point where alcohol had its way with me before He would
The alcohol made me physically sick, and it was noticeable to those around me.
I was one hundred and ten pounds, and my
skin was pale. My will to live was nonexistent,
and I was emotionally, mentally and spiritually bankrupt. I had hit bottom and
waiting in the shadow was God’s mercy.
All I had to do was become willing to let go
and let Christ take care of my will and life. The key was activating my faith
and begin building a personal relationship with the Father. That has meant
humbling myself before God and following the commands He reveals.
The suffering I endured paved the way for
God to do for me what I couldn’t do for myself. He delivered me from evil and saved
me through His merciful grace.
Knowing His truth leaves no doubt about what my daily responsibilities are in
remaining in His kingdom. I must pick up my cross and walk in the footsteps of
Christ because failure to do so signs my misery back into the darkness of an
unsaved life.
As my desire to serve Christ continues to burn
stronger the aimless direction of my life has changed to the road to eternal
life. By abandoning myself to God, I have become usefully whole. That elusive
piece of life’s puzzle (God’s Truth) is now a part
of my heart.
The light of Christ is everlasting and will
never stop burning. No matter what your struggles are your desire to seek and
do the will of God will be well worth it!
Missing out on Christ’ remarkable way of
life would be tragic.
Is your life burning with a desire for Christ?
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